29 January 2009

So if all we have is that glance in the window. If all we have is till this train stops. If all we have is till the sun comes up, till your lift picks you up. And If all we have is till the day I die. I'm ok with what we have. - I Wrote this for you.

But really, all we want, and I speak for the entire human race here, is contact. Someone to let us know that we aren't alone. That the world isn't a dream and you and I really are happening at the same time, even if it's not in the same place. That this is real. You're really there. I'm really here. We're real.

This is real.

The relationship you have with the world is just like any other relationship. Every now and again, even if it's pissed you off for no good reason, you have to look it in the eyes and say:

I love you.

where were you, where were you? just a little late.

My feelings in every respect forbid it. Can I speak plainer? Do not consider me now as an elegant female, intending to plague you, but as a rational creature, speaking the truth from her heart.

Dearest Cecilia, the story can resume. The one I had been planning on that evening walk. I can become again the man who once crossed the surrey park at dusk, in my best suit, swaggering on the promise of life. The man who, with the clarity of passion, made love to you in the library. The story can resume. I will return. Find you, love you, marry you and live without shame.

Every love is carved from loss.
Mine was. Yours is. Your great-great-great-grandchildren's will be.
But we learn to live in that love."
-everything is illuminated

Without words, it comes. And suddenly, sharply, one is aware of being separated from every person on one’s earth and every object, and from the beginning of things and from the future and even a little, from one’s self. A moment before one was happily playing, the world was round and friendly. Now at one’s feet there are chasms that had been invisible until this moment. And one knows, and never remembers how it was learned, that there will always be chasms, and across the chasms will always be those one loves.

It is not time or opportunity that is to determine intimacy it is disposition alone. Seven years would be insufficient to make some people acquainted with each other, and seven days are more than enough for others.

Death ... a melancholy and shocking extremity.
- Sense and Sensibility

27 January 2009

Seabear

oh no, she's on fire

sleeping in my head

she's been crawling spiders

that crawl around in my bed

she's been dreaming of a wire

that leads from my head to hers

and you were never her man

you were always just a boy

and she's a liar

sleeping in the sparrows nest


Exams are over, so i am somewhat back on track! Seabear, a band showing many truths, somehow the music persuades me to live without thinking, which i believe isan infinite feeling. If you would like me to give credit to any of these amazing photographers, please give me a yell! Hope you are all doing wonderful!
xx

16 January 2009

breathe in the world around you


Fifty People One Question.

the world is moving so fast now, we are all chasing something so fast that we start freaking out long before our parents did. Feel my heart.
Feel how fast it is?
...that's a fast heart.
‘Cause we don't ever stop to breathe anymore...
You gotta remember to breathe or you'll die. - the last kiss

Sometimes it feels like it's all happening to someone else. Someone like you. And I'm just watching.

if we wait for the moment when everything, absolutely everything is ready, we shall never begin. -ivan turgenev

I'm sorry for my scattered posting, exams are this week. I hope you are all doing lovely.
xx

15 January 2009

"i will have poetry in my life, and adventures, and love. love above all. no, not the artful postures of love, not playful and poetical games of love for the amusement of an evening. but love that overthrows life. unbiddable, ungovernable, like a riot in the heart and nothing to be done, come ruin or rapture."
-shakespeare in love

"you don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. you learn to take life as it comes to you...to make each day count."
-titanic

"It's the possibility that keeps me going...and though you may call me a dreamer or fool or any other thing, I believe that anything is possible."
-the notebook

"The great blessings of mankind are within us and within our reach; but we shut our eyes, and like people in the dark, we fall foul upon the very thing we search for, without finding it."
-Seneca

"for a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin- real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, some unfinished business. at last it dawned on me that this was my life. there is no way to happiness, happiness is the way."
-souza

"some people say that the ground falls away beneath you...but with me it was if i suddenly knew it was there. it was as though i could feel the entire planet right there beneath the souls of my feet."
-the best man

"the best kind of love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds."
-the notebook

"it's the sense of touch. in any real city you walk, you know? you brush past people, people bump into you. in LA, nobody touches you. we're always behind this metal and glass. i think we miss that touch so much that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something."
-crash

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.
-albert camus

can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited.
— Sylvia Plath

I need a home for my hands and head

"In his blue gardens men and girls came and went like moths among the whisperings and the champagne and the stars."


"This fall I think you're riding for - it's a special kind of fall, a horrible kind. The man falling isn't permitted to feel or hear himself hit bottom. He just keeps falling and falling. The whole arrangement's designed for men who, at some time or other in their lives, were looking for something their own environment couldn't supply them with. Or they thought their own environment couldn't supply them with. So they gave up looking. They gave it up before they ever really even got started."

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.

it seems to me that no one in the world has ever made something this beautiful and important.

Do you remember when we were vampires? Do you remember when we ran through the streets at night, our heads back, laughing and screaming, so alive it felt like we owned the world? Do you remember?
Do you remember me?

I never stopped loving you. Because I never stopped breathing.

You can chase the shadows if you want to. But all you'll do, is make them longer.

There are days when I want to walk up to you and scream in your face
"No one else gets you like I do, now let's get the hell out of here." But theres a barrier now, its not like before, were lost, swirling around in the life that people forced upon us.


Look what you've done, you've punched a hole in the sun.

Photos are from different places, i believe one is from the lovely yyellowbird, although that is all i can remember, my greatest apologies.
The quotes are from the great Gatsby, Catcher in the Rye, I Wrote this for you, and the dancing poet living in my head.

I bumped into someone today, and he put his arm around me and we had a conversation about how he was sorry he had bumped me, it made my day actually, the touch of a stranger i suppose.

14 January 2009

they left me completely numb.

I know it hurts. That's life. If nothing else, It's life. It’s real, and sometimes it fuckin’ hurts, but it's sort of all we have. - Garden State



Fuck, this hurts so much.

I need you to give me the chance to take you for granted.




"We may not be as happy as you always dreamed we would be, but for the first time let's just allow ourselves to be whatever it is we are and that will be better. OK? I think that will be better."




If you thought that was our second chance, you're wrong. It was our last.




You look different today.




I forgive you.




Things fall. Things change. They wait a year and do it again. You don't need to fall to change.




Watching you. While you watch me. Watching back.




You'll feel a slight pinch. And then an eternity of bliss.




Talk. You need to tell the people around you what's on your mind.




"why are you trying so hard to fit in- when you were born to stand out?"




"you are the reasons i am. you are all my reasons."




"And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older, as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it has already happened."




"Take chances, take a lot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel always. Be you, and be okay with it."




"it's possible to forget how alive we really are. we can become dry and tired, just existing, instead of really living. we need to remind ourselves of the juice of life, and make that a habit. find those places inside that jump for joy, and do things that bring out your best, most magic self."






Sometimes the words you struggle with most, are quick easy words, the ones that really mean something, that leave a sting in your heart and a burn in your eyes, those are the words that are struggled to voice, those are the words that really matter.




You know how you hurt me, and it goes through you, like salt and sugar, it mixes so easily into the rest of your life that i question if you ever cared. i will forgive you, if you show me a new world, that i can't find alone.




found the pictures and quotes along my travels of the infinite abyss, the last two writings are my own. sorry i can't remember specifically the sources!